Change and Growth

I am human and saved by God's grace. No matter what happens God is good all the time. I need to rely on God to be enough and I have not been relying on God to be enough. Times of unexpected growth and unexpected pain have occurred since my move. The move to TN began with tonsillitis. Then I found out that my boyfriend needs our relationship to slow down and he is unsure what is going on as well as a lot of stuff that he is dealing with. Surprise! God worked in me through that time. I discovered a great church named New River Fellowship where God's spirit is ministering to me. I am experiencing healing, peace that passes all understanding, and an increase in faith. My own thoughts and feelings take over at times, but these times are becoming fewer. Praise the Lord! Now I realize that the boyfriend must face the past and the future is uncertain. I believe this is healthy and I am praying for God to intervene and give both of us clarity, direction, and guidance. I also pray for more of a dependence on God and growth. Life and love is empty without God. It is superficial and leaves a hole that only God can fill. I cannot rely on people because people let you down and disappear. I have not achieved total reliance on God, but I am growing and seeing myself more clearly and my need for God.

I have been working two part-time jobs since I moved here. I praise God for the full-time job at the Gaylord Opryland Resort and Convention Center beginning July 22nd. I will keep my part-time job at Banana Republic in the mornings as I establish life after college. It will be a drive to get to work, but I have been used to driving at least 30 minutes to travel to a lot of places while I lived in the Charlotte area.

Right now I am spending the weekend alone and am fighting a new round of tonsillitis. Life is stressful right now and I probably did not get over the first time of tonsillitis about a month ago. I have not had tonsillitis before TN.

I had the opportunity to get connected with many people from church on Wednesday which was a big blessing. Tomorrow I will go out for lunch after church and get to know other people my age. Then I will rest and pray that I do not have any bad side effects from powerful medicine fighting tonsillitis. I may bake some zucchini bread and go bowling. Then I will thank God for all that happened last week and thank God for all that will happen next week. God's mercy is new every morning. The sun always rises the next day. God sees the big picture and he is good.

I invite you to stay posted. I hope to post pictures of my nice little apartment. I hope to continue to post and I welcome your comments. If you feel led, please keep me and the boyfriend in your prayers especially through August. Thanks. I will try to remember to post again soon.

New Beginnings and New Opportunities

I am hoping that this post will encourage me to begin to write on a regular basis again. Time will tell if this is true.:) Life is happening, I am seeing myself more clearly, and I am enjoying a time of change and growth. I graduated from UNC Charlotte May 10th with a B.A. in International Studies and Philosophy. I have an interest in being a professor, but I do not have a specific passion. I only have many general interests. As a result of this and listening to Dave Ramsey, I am interested in working for several years. During this time, I may be taking a class or two at a time to stay in the world of academia. After graduation, I moved to Columbia, TN to be nearer to my boyfriend and enjoy a new location with new possibilities. I live about an hour south of Nashville. I am enjoying my initial impressions of the area and the evidence of music being very important. I have a cute apartment, working two part-time jobs, and discovered an awesome church in Franklin, TN. I have had time of feeling alone due to the fact of being in a new area and knowing few people. I am faced with the need to rely on God and the reality that I have not lived like He is my everything. If God is here, that is all I need. It is easy to make that statement. I am feeling a time of growth, and am thankful for all the God-moments along the way. I see many new and exciting things occurring in the next week. Stay tuned.