Interests of Rebecca

Today I realized that there are specific things that Rebecca likes and things she does not want. I am reminded of the movie Runaway Bride. Julia Roberts did not know what kind of eggs she liked. She adapted to the guy instead of being her own person. Well, I definitely know how I like my eggs and they need to be dry scrambled or as an omelet. I am sensitive to the texture of food. I look forward to the creamy tomato soup and cheese crouton soup at Panera. I like coffee, mochas, green tea, and coffee shops. I am probably addicted to Starbucks mochas and the internet. Ikea puts a smile on my face and probably a bit of glowing even if I only see the blue building where Ikea will be located in Charlotte one day. Right now the VW Jetta or Rabbit is my favorite car. I am happy with a paid for car that provides transportation even if it is not my dream car. God knows what he is doing, he sees the big picture, and he is my daddy. As a result, I can take life one step at a time because I know who has my back and sees where the next step is taking me. I love to listen to people talk who are from a different culture - especially Europe. I pick up accents easily which can be entertaining at the call center. One call I talk to a guest from Alabama and have a thick southern accent and the next call is a lady from Canada with a French accent. My accent changes with hello. I miss traveling and hope to one day return to Switzerland even for a few weeks. Life is much more fulfilling and exciting when relying on God daily. Life with God is full of calculated risk and living on the edge. God has to be the one to be glorified. At the moment, I enjoy learning more about the great state of TN and walking out this adventure one step at a time.

Streams of Water in the Desert

I am reminded this evening of God's faithfulness and his provision. God cares about little things like time spent between a father and his children with the provision of a snack. God cares about a lady wanting ice cream. God knows that people are cold and need heat. God knows that a girl has recently moved, broken up with her boyfriend, and in need of an additional job and cash. God knows that this girl's car needs repair. God knows.

I can easily forget that God knows. God also desires to be known. I need to lean on him, spend time with him, and trust him. Then I will see that God sees me, knows me, knows my situation, and will provide for my needs. I am also reminded that God provides my daily bread. God provides what I need today. Tomorrow is a new day. God will take care of tomorrow just as he has taken care of today. I just need to seek God's face, listen for his voice, and trust him.

God is all about producing streams of water in the desert. God is the only one who can be given credit for the miracle of water in the desert, and he desires to be glorified :)

God, what are you up to?

God,

I sit here close to midnight pondering you, me, my dreams, and being in Nashville. My mind goes back to Switzerland and the idea of going to Southeastern Baptist Theological Seminary. I listen to worship music and my mind begins to create dances in response to you. I sense that I am where I need to be, and at the same time I sense that there is something more that I have not reached out and grasped. I desire to live like no one else so that I can one day live like no one else. I desire to get out of debt and use my finances responsibly. I desire to work in a place where I can serve, encourage, educate, and use my strengths. I desire to glorify you in my work. I desire to study and be aware of current events. I desire to challenge my beliefs and desires so that I can challenge others. I have an income crisis, but then again you know that! You know me. You know the very core of me. You know all the complexities, all the changes, all the steps back, and all the steps forward that have occurred this past year. What am I doing in Nashville? Where do I need to be working? What do I need to be doing? How long do I need to stay here? I desire to have a broad area of influence and get back to school to be a professor. What should I be teaching? Why does Southeastern and Dr. Little continue to come to my mind while I wonder if education there would limit me. Yet, what an education and foundation I would gain! What surgery needs to occur within me so that I may better reflect you and glorify you with my life? What steps need to be taken? Life has meaning, hope, and joy with you. I know that I need to lean on you more. You are my stability. If I depend on anyone or anything else, they change and float away. You remain the same. I have seen this in a more realistic way this past year. Thank you. How does my thinking need to change? My interests are in philosophy and theology. A core of these interests are beliefs and ideas. My beliefs and ideas need to be challenged and change before I can expect others to allow me to challenge them. Father, help me to take one step at a time. I sense you telling me to take life one step at a time. Your Word lights my steps. I desire to pay attention to you, your character, and your ways to take the steps you want me to take.

Thank you for time today. Thank you for providing for my needs. Thank you for the time to see old friends. Thank you for time to cook. Thank you for the questions, dreams, and inspiration. Even though I am unsure where the next steps will bring me. I know that you are with me every step of the way. I love you! Accept love and a smile from your daughter.

In Jesus Name,

Amen